Enough

I lost it, that thing so important, that soon or later I had to lose, doesn't exist anymore;
 inside I feel disgusting, I have a knot in my throat..but I just can't do more than I already done.
I hate this, and worst, I knew that this gonna happen, but I'm a little girl that just follow her feelings, no, not little..I'm a stupid girl. 
I don't know what to do, write, say or feel right now, the only thing I know is that I played really bad, and now, I have to suffer the consequences.